ChOcO_IcE's WoRLd

Heart

2011-05-30T21:43:00.000+08:00

Heart is a very beautiful creation.
Heart can feel when eyes closed.

A simple greeting can warm a heart.
A simple thing can hurt a heart.
A simple speech can touch a heart.
A simple person can steal a heart.
A simple action can heal a heart.

Heart can cry when sad.
Heart can smile when happy.
Heart can be breatheless when angry.

Feeling can be hide inside a heart without anybody knowing it.
Feeling can be kept inside heart for a very long time.

I heart you.

^3£^

Reality

2011-05-27T13:54:00.000+08:00

The reality is always cruel.
I can't escape anymore.
I have to face it one day no matter how.

Parents have their responsibility to their children.
They are supposed to give protection, security, love, care...
anything they can do the best for their children.

But why there are parents who give burden, stress, unhappiness to their children.

I feel so heavy and lost now.

But the fact is, reality makes us grow.

God, give me strength to face all of these, positively...

L.O.V.E

2011-01-14T11:03:00.001+08:00

Just a few days,

there were so many things happened and came into my life.

I believe,

it's a new challenge for me.

It made me believe what i wouldn't believe before this.

It might be happened and i wouldn't know.

Just be prepared.

(Thanks to my friend who told me this, i would be strong and prepared)

But i don't hope that will ever happened in my life.

I believe in you.

If it really happens,

at least,

i believe you will be honest to me.

(Thanks for being honest to me)

It made me realize,

you are very important to me.

You are meant for me.

First time i feel scared to lost you.

Really...

Thanks to IT for making me feel so.

It made me realize how much i love you.

Because i love you,

I will give you freedom.

Love doesn't meant own.

Love is hoping you to be happy, blessed and better.

I will try my best to hold you tight by my side.

I BELIEVE IN YOU, REALLY.

I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE IN YOU.

LET'S ROCK OUR LOVE TOGETHER,
MY ONE AND ONLY VAMPIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love Letter

2010-10-02T22:48:00.003+08:00

Love letters straight from ur heart

Keep us so near, while apart

I'm not alone in the night

When I can have

all the love u write

I memorize every line

And I kiss the name

that you sign

And darling then

I read again

right from the start

Love letters straight

from your heart.

黑色的心情

2010-08-01T23:06:00.000+08:00

黑灰色的心，
生病了的心，
没有人懂得，
没有人了解。

一个人的感觉，
与世隔离的感觉，
渐渐地习惯了。

一个被黑色躯壳包围着的我，
不知何时才会被太阳发现。

好想念温暖的阳光，
呵呵哈哈的笑声，
熟悉的脸孔。

Wonderful

2010-04-04T02:02:00.003+08:00

I hope i could record our conversation just now.
I hope i could remember everything that we shared just now.
It was so wonderful!
I love it!

We hardly can find someone to share everything so freely in our lives.
We hardly can find someone that can understand and tolerate with us in our lives.
We hardly can find someone that love us in our lives.

You are such a wonderful person i have met in my life.

If u didn't tell me all these things, i wouldn't have a chance to know them.
If u were not there to remind me, i might be lost and wouldn't remind myself about it.
If u were not there to advise me to be better and make a change, i might still be daydreaming drowning into deeper and deeper.

These show how important you are in my life,
and how deadly i need you in my life.

Of course, i want to be more independent, so that i wouldn't have to depend on you so much.

And i can reduce your burden on your shoulder.

Thank you for being an important person and such a wonderful person in my life.

I hope this relationship would be longer and longer and longer...

I enjoyed chatting with you, tonight...
I wouldn't forget...

Love you dear...
Wish you would be better tomorrow...
Good Night =)

Something New For Me

2010-03-06T02:36:00.002+08:00

Today, I found out something new.
New for myself, but maybe not for others.

I found that sometimes,
we really couldn't find the right person and the right time to express our feeling.

What to do in this kind of situation?
We can only talk to ourselves.
We can only be the one who listen to ourselves.

Thus, I have created a formula.
Here it is...

How to find yourself back when you are lost?
1. Say everything you want to say or express everything in you mind and heart to yourself.
How you feel? (Cry if u feel like crying)
2. Listen attentively to yourself. What has happened...?
3. What are the problems or reasons, analyze them...
4. Find alternative and creative solutions to solve the problems in a proper way.
5. Make sure the problems are being solved effectively and well without making anyone feel
uncomfortable.
6. Make sure after the problems solved, you can do things well just like before.

It's you who make me created this formula. (Thank you)
It's you who remind me, I have to be independent. (Thank you)
But at the same time,
(from another point of view),
I feel that,
you are not there when I need you.

In my opinion,
if our partners need us,
we will try to listen attentively to them,
make them feel better
and give suggestions to them.

No matter how sleepy we are,
but at that time,
our mind will be focused also.

This is so called "sacrifice in love", willingly.

But you didn't do so.
Maybe what you think is different from me?
Tell me what you think then...

"I will always beside you",
But,
Where are you now?

........................................................
Are you the person that I want?

* I'm sorry that I couldn't make allowance for you in this kind of situation.

伤感

2009-10-25T23:22:00.002+08:00

为什么感觉被忽略了？
是真的被忽略了，还是自己让自己被忽略呢？
是我想太多吗？
不同faculty就不能维持感情吗？
没有参与他们的活动感情就会变吗？

我自认是个被动的人，
不懂得如何跟人沟通，
难道上天要考验我？
要我学会如何与人沟通？
这个对我来说真的很难。
我不知该如何融入他们的世界。

难道以后，我的朋友就只有马来人吗？
难道以后，我和马来人的感情比华人还要好吗？
难道以后，我的一切活动都是和马来人一起吗？
真的要酱吗？

朋友。。。
是自找的。。。
要怎么维持这段友情呢？

看到他们这么要好，
我很羡慕。
虽然跟他们走在一起，
但感觉我是
被忽略的，
孤独的，
寂寞的，
一个人。。。

伤心，
沉默，
累了。。。
很想要逃避，
让自己消失。。。

有人问我，
“你不开心吗？”
“为什么你那么静了？”
我，
无言。。。
只是在想，以前的我很吵吗？

要怎么改变我自己？
要争取多一点机会融入他们的世界？
多参与他们的活动？
不能，我的功课太多了。
顺其自然，
继续与自己的室友和同科系的人一起进行日常生活中的活动？
我希望，
自己多与华人一起。。。
和华人的感情要好。。。

上天，
你教我，
该如何？